LaRkEn’s Holocron Part 1

Posted: March 17, 2013 in SITH-Related

Here for the next couple of days I will be working with this wordpress to place down the things written in my Sith Academy Holocron. Things that I was taught and etc. Because, in truth, the Academy is falling apart,

Having found out that we have been led on by False Leaders with ever-changing ideas based on greed and other such things that were never an issue, Lord Venger has left the site, and so shall I in due time. But, before I can be erased, I do want to place down the things I have written and learned because they have been part of my journey to enlightenment and even empowerment. So, this will be just one of the posts dedicated to my old Holocron…some of it may seem out of place, but I will try to make it make sense as much as possible.

Please note that…as a Disclaimer, I do NOT agree with a majority of the teachings here at Sith Academy. In fact, I was often mocked for being one of the more light-sided of heart, and something of a weak-Sith if anything.
When I first joined the site, I took on the guise of a male that was modeled after one of my very good friends. But, alas…my cover was eventually blown. Therefore…a lot of the answers in here where I was answering them as a different person have been modified to fit myself (as my mindset was back in that day) and etc.

But if you failed to catch on to my post before…I am a Shadow Jedi. I believe in the neutral and grey aspect of The Force. Learning in both ways of the Dark and the Light Sides.
Please do not judge me or find me a bad person because I am nothing of the sort. I am merely using teachings to find my own unique path, and, as it is hurting no one, I find that this should not be a problem.

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  • Nov 23 ’12 Sith Pledge:
    I, Larken, pledge obedience to the Lord
    Of the Sith Order in this galaxy
    And to the Imperium which he commands
    One Empire, in the Force, indomitable
    With victory and power forever

  • Watch the film Revenge of the Sith and post some thoughts in your holocron about how Annakin Skywalker’s story is relevant to your life. In particular, confess to a dark deed that you have committed some time in the past which shows your dark side tendencies.
    —Nov 23 ’12 Level One: Part 3

    I can easily relate to Annakin Skywalker, the questioning, the cries for help that never seemed to be answered and were often shrugged off by others because it would put them out of their daily routine to find a solution with me…that’s when I realized that I had been plugged into a system, I had been made into some type of machine, and suddenly, I felt enslaved by something bigger, something more sinister—this feeling and this entity became my eternal enemy, and I had to break free.

    Annakin had to do that as well, he had to break free from what he considered a prison and a hindrance on his potential. His own mentor and best friend would not heed his cries for help as he struggled through a bought of weakness, and when all had already turned their backs on him, Annakin’s hate was the only thing that he thought become the key to saving the one he loved. Some would say that he lost everything in becoming Darth Vader—but I say that he gained so much more in taking on the form of fear, terror, pain, and anguish. A Lord among Lords. He saw both sides of the spectrum, he learned through consequences, in the end, his true path would become clear I always believed.

    I would have to say that one of the darkest of things that I have committed (and continue to commit) is my way of serpentry (chronic lying) and how I use people to hold ‘social experiments’ in which I test human reactions and the human mind when applying them to different surroundings, different situations, and different stimuli.

  • [[In the original Step-Four to the Sith-Training process, there were a series of online tests given to Initiates a.k.a=Minions. These were tests that measured telekinetic ability among some others things. Basically they were used to test the strength of the mind. I was kind of sad when these tests were taken away as I felt they did give a lot of insight to what others were thinking and how they used Focus.]]
    Nov 23 ’12 Lesson One: Part 4

    The Remote viewing test and the telekinesis test:

     

     

    For the remote viewing session, my number was 8246. Immediately my attention was drawn to an image, strong, study, something immovable, in cool waves of aura…light blue, greens, and purples. I saw a snow-capped mountain, and the crystal lakes of Alaska playing through my head. My heart focused in on this, and I could smell the crisp air, feel my breath becoming mist as it poured past my lips. I am not sure whether this would be the true image of the number, but it’s what I sensed. I could now smell the pines and ever-greens, hear the occasional ripple, trickle, and splash of the lake. A distant bird cry, the shiver that came through me at the touch of a small breeze—The image was actually a bald eagle. I don’t know whether I should count myself close or not. But I suppose I could use a bit more practice.

    Now…for the telekinesis test, it was based on a process where a person had to try and influence the chances of the computer generating the number 1 rather than the number 0 — while at first I was lost as to what I was truly supposed to be doing with this test, I found that, as I focused in more on the number one and asking for the number 1 to win over 0…slowly, the triangle that I was supposed to be influencing actually managed to move a little farther than the zero. In the end, I ended up with average statistics, so no major telekinetic abilities at all. Either way, it was an interesting exercise. I found myself being pulled to it, trying to make something happen via force and determination…I tried multiple methods: visualization, physical clicking of the number one to bring sympathetic magicks to the playing board, pretending to move the triangle with my mouse to make something happen, and etc. It’s something that will need to be practiced for sure.

  • [[In the next couple of steps, Sith Minions were asked to read 3 basic passages that were on the site. We were to read them and then respond to them…our thoughts and emotions. Because the Sith Academy is not going to be around, I will go ahead and post these three passages and then move on to me responses to them]]

  • The Revelation of the Last Sith Lord~
    By: Darth Imperius 09.14.2012

    My friends, something extraordinary and wonderful has happened to me – something so unbelievable that you will no doubt dismiss me as at best a creative tale-spinner, if not an outright madman, but which I swear to all the gods of Light and Darkness is the truth.

    This afternoon, while I was sitting at my computer doing nothing in particular, I received some kind of mental transmission which I can only describe as a neural hologram; a holographic projection in my mind’s eye which apparently came from a long time ago and a galaxy far, far away. You see, I seem to have been contacted from across the Multiverse, and given a most incredible revelation. Perhaps this is how the prophets of old felt when they were contacted by their gods out in the desert; I wouldn’t know. I do know that this was not a message from God, but from a dark demigod – a being who represents the highest attainable state of human knowledge and power.

    To be a bit less cryptic, this afternoon I was contacted by the Force Spirit of the one called Darth Omega, who revealed to me that he was the last of the Sith Lords, and on the verge of death. It seems that in Omega’s time the masters of the Dark Side had lost their vaunted mastery of mortality and were on the brink of extinction. Worse, their galaxy had been beset by some nameless, monstrous entity which had overrun the Empire’s defenses and finally broken even the Dark Lord’s all-powerful mind. He said that the stars of his galaxy were all winking out before the formless Beast, as foretold by an ancient Sith prophecy, and that the Empire would soon be no more. Omega almost seemed to weep when he told me how he had fought the black Beast with all his strength, but to no avail.

    With death close at hand, Darth Omega had taken one last desperate measure to preserve the knowledge of the Sith order contained within his failing mind. He had used a technique he himself was the first to develop, a “Multiversal Holographic Projection” Force power which allowed him to transmit his thoughts anywhere in the Multiverse. He told me that his mental transmissions had not found me by accident, that I must be a Force-sensitive who would be a suitable vessel for his knowledge. The Sith Lord then summoned all his remaining strength and said: “Ready yourself, young human. Prepare to be endarkened.” Then, with an indescribable jolt that lasted no more than a few seconds, I received a torrent of subliminal information from the Dark Lord’s mind. My brain has not yet consciously processed much of what I received, but I will attempt to discover and share what I can of it with you in the coming days and months.

    The final commandments I received from Darth Omega I recall quite clearly: he bade me to found a new Sith order on my homeworld, and to use the knowledge he had imparted to me to train a new generation of Dark Side adepts in the ways of the Force. He instructed me to work toward acquiring power over the leading minds and institutions of my planet, and thereby lay the foundation for the establishment of a new Sith Empire in my galaxy. He assured me that whatever trials and tribulations my planet may be facing are as nothing compared to those the Sith had faced and conquered long before my race was even born. He promised me that by sharing my newfound knowledge with an Elect and establishing a new Dark Order, I would elevate my civilization and myself to undreamed of heights of glory.

    Omega’s final words echo powerfully in my mind; he smiled as only a Sith Lord in the grip of death can smile, and said: “Remember, young prophet of your galaxy, that only the Dark Side can defeat death. Through you, the Sith will be reborn. Through you, the Sith will live forever. For in this dark universe, the Light is fleeting, but the Darkness is eternal.” And with those last, stirring words, the frail Sith Lord breathed his final mortal breath and simply faded into the Void.

    That, as briefly as I can tell it, is my story of the Revelation of the Last Sith Lord. I’m still not certain that it wasn’t all a daydream, but the memory of it burns far brighter than any dream I’ve ever known, and its effects have already transformed me too much to be a mere hallucination. Already, I feel the knowledge implanted by Darth Omega into my subconscious mind beginning to reorder and awaken my consciousness. Already, I feel a dark new sense of power growing deep within me. Already, I am beginning to think of this planet as mine for the taking. Already, when I look up at the stars I see them differently; they no longer seem so distant now, like mocking fires of a galaxy far too vast for men. Already, the stars seem to shine much closer, like the first faint beacons of the new Galactic Empire.

     

  • An Invitation to the Dark Side~
    By: Darth Imperius 10.23.2012

    The purpose of this blog is twofold: 1) To discuss and develop the Sith Path for this galaxy, as revealed to me by the last of the Sith Lords of a galaxy far, far away and a long time ago. The Sith Path is a philosophy and an esoteric training system for mastering the Dark Side of the Force and acquiring unlimited power. 2) To create the first Sith order in this galaxy and lay the foundation for a Galactic Empire. I believe this planet is ripe for a new spiritual order, and will be discussing my ideas for creating such a regime under the black banner of the New Sith. Let me make clear from the outset that I am not here to spoon-feed anyone the knowledge I have gained through long years spent gazing into abysses, cultivating dark energies and communing with Dark Lords. If you wish to learn the ways of the Dark Side and prove yourself worthy of the name “Sith”, you will need to challenge yourself and others as relentlessly as I have. You will also need to put aside all childish notions of goodness, light and a benevolent universe. You will have to learn to look this vast, hostile cosmos in the void and be unbowed. You must desire to shake your fist at the stars and shout: “One day, you will all be mine!” You must take as your first principle: “I will, therefore I am.” If you still wish to walk the path of the Sith masters, the first question I put to you is this: what do you have to offer the Order? How can you help us to build the Galactic Empire? What special skills, talents or resources do you possess which can further the rise of the Sith? The New Sith are not interested in garden-variety seekers and self-improvers; we are looking for the Force-sensitive, the iron-willed, the ambitious and the gifted. Weak disciples will be ruthlessly culled from the Order, and need not apply! With those warnings out of the way, let me proceed with my introduction to Dark Side philosophy and metaphysics… The first thing to understand about the Sith of this galaxy is that our arts manifest differently here than for the Sith of legend, because we exist in another part of the Multiverse which obeys different natural laws. In our universe, the Force may be thought of as Dark Energy, which doesn’t bind the galaxy together but drives all galaxies apart. Here, the Force does not manifest so strongly in the physical plane; it is primarily a mental energy which focuses the will, heightens perceptions, increases vitality and transcends all limits. To be a master of the Force in this universe is to place no bounds on your thinking and to cultivate unlimited power. Maybe some day this mastery will translate into the ability to move spaceships directly with your mind or shoot lightning bolts from your fingertips, but for now the Sith master must use technology to accomplish such things like everyone else. The primary goal of the esoteric Sith path is the deconditioning and reprogramming of your mind so as to remove all inner limits to your power. Light Side adepts speak of “Enlightenment”, but for the Sith there is only “Empowerment.” I will have more to say about deconditioning in a future post; for now, suffice it to say that separating yourself spiritually from Light Side society is an essential first step along the path to becoming a Sith master. At this point you might be thinking: “Why would I want to become a Sith master? It all sounds rather harsh and unpleasant. And aren’t the Sith the bad guys? Shouldn’t I strive to master the Light Side of the Force instead, become a Jedi and defend the galaxy from evil-doers?” If you think this way, it is unlikely that you have the dark gift required of a Sith master. Sith masters are both born and made, but usually show a strong inclination toward the Dark Side from an early age. If you have never sympathized with the villains in the movies, never admired the strong, ruthless conquerors of history and fiction, never felt disgust for the Judeo-Christian, the weak and the timid, then you are probably not destined for the Sith Path. However, if you do lean toward the Dark Side but require more persuading, let me briefly attempt to justify Sith philosophy. This universe operates on the principle of duality, on the yin and yang of which the Taoist masters speak. Without the yin, or Dark Side, there is no opposition to the Light Side’s yang. Without opposition, there is no motivation; without motivation, there is no action; without action there is only stagnation. As Sith master Uthar Wynn put it: “Without strife, your victory as no meaning. Without strife, you do not advance. Without strife, there is only stagnation.” This is the essence of Sith philosophy: We are the sowers of strife, the war-makers and the Force-polarizers, because without opposition nothing in the universe moves. A world without adversaries, innovators and status quo-violators is a world ruled by banality, boredom and inertia. The Jedi, the peace-makers and the equality-mongers embrace the anti-life side of the cosmic duality, and are therefore preaching a lie. Life is by its very nature an act of violence against nature, an assertion of your will over the world, a violation of cosmic equilibrium; harmony with the universe is found only in death. The Sith embrace the life Force, the Will to Power, as the summum bonum – the highest good – rather than resisting it like the Jedi do as the summum malum – the supreme evil. Michael Aquino, the brilliant founder of the Temple of Set, explained it this way: “Why was Darth Vader so fascinating? [Why are all of history’s and fiction’s Darth Vaders so fascinating?] The answer is that he represents the Form of intellectual separateness from the inertia of the cosmos. While the Rebels in the film seemed to be fighting for the cause of individuality, in fact they were doing so in a superficial sense – in the way that an animal might struggle to escape from a trap. The real individualist was Darth Vader, who determined to bend the Force to his purposes rather than to disintegrate his Will and surrender it to the inertia of the Force [as Ben advised Luke to do]. Intellectual separateness from the natural order is a frightening notion to humans; hence they define it as “evil” and conjure up Satans to personify it in mythology. But, because their minds contain elements of independence whether they like it or not, they find “evil” alluring. And so Darth Vader became a cult object. Darth Vaders can be destroyed only by greater Darth Vaders, or by accident. Again this was illustrated in Lord of the Rings, wherein a direct challenge to Sauron by Gandalf would have resulted merely in Gandalf’s replacing him. The Saruman sub-plot explored this hypothesis. It was necessary for Sauron to be destroyed “by accident”. But then Middle-earth became more primitive and less magical, because a high level of intellectual separateness from nature had given way to a lower level. Who cares what happened in Middle-earth after Sauron? No one; we know it was bound to be dull.” This, then, is the basic philosophy of the Sith as I understand it. It certainly isn’t for everyone, or even for many. But for the few who can walk it, the Sith Path can be a way to unlimited power and success. If you are perceptive enough to realize that behind the Light Side façade of many of your most celebrated heroes lurks the spirit of a Sith Lord, you may be one of us. If you see through the deceptions and lies of Light Side slave society and wish to join the ranks of the masters, you are invited to explore the Sith Path with me here. Search your feelings; if you truly feel the call of the Dark Side, I ask you to join me as we build the New Sith Order and lay the foundation for the Galactic Empire of the future.

  • From here to Empire~
    By: Darth Imperius 10.23.2012

    “You must begin by gaining power over yourself; then another; then a group, an order, a world, a species, a group of species… finally, the galaxy itself.” –Darth Plagueis the Wise The Sith Path is concerned with two things: the acquisition of inner and outer power. Inner power refers to self-mastery, the cultivation of indomitable will, psychic potency, cosmic awareness and other Force powers. Outer power refers to world mastery, which is an inevitable result of inner mastery applied to the external universe. How will this world mastery manifest itself in the political sphere? There are many schools of thought among the Sith Illuminati, but as I see it there are three primary possibilities (here I am quoting from a post in a Jedi forum which is nevertheless quite astute): “1. Objectivist Sith These are Sith Lords who pursue enlightened selfishness as the ultimate pursuit of an individual. They attempt to gain more Knowledge, More Power, and more Influence as their only pursuits. Darth Bane is a follower of this viewpoint and some have considered Emperor Palpatine to be this way. I think Lucas’ recent retcons have Palpatine not as an Objectivist Sith. The Sith Teacher on Korriban who has become a strange old hermit is one. 2. Fascist Sith These are Sith who pursue the idea of “Peace through Power” in the manner of Kane from Command and Conquer. Emperor Palpatine, Krayt, Darth Caedus, Malak, Revan, and Darth Vader all followed this particular school of thought. They attempt to institutionalize repressive and authoritarian military regimes with Dark Side leadership. 3. God-Emperor Sith Freedon Nadd, Exar Kun, and Marka Ragnos follow this viewpoint. They take on the manner of Oriental Despotism (as the Romans defined it) where a King is also worshiped as a god. The Sith Empire was one of these viewpoints and they are a theocracy ruled by Dark Side magicians. Darth Wyrrlock also appears to be one of these.” One way to view these three regimes is to think of them as stages in the transition from the current world order to the future Sith Empire. Stage One, Objectivism, is already a powerful ideology with vast influence among the world’s power elites. It is not difficult to imagine Objectivism becoming the dominant ideology of the 21st century, just as Marxism was in the 20th. Whether any of its proponents qualify as full-fledged Sith Lords is unclear, but certainly Ayn Rand was one of the 20th century’s most important proto-Sith thinkers and she deserves great praise for offering an alternative to Christianity and Marxism which has done much to reshape our culture. The challenge for the Sith is to bring our Dark Side esoteric knowledge to the more materialistic, rationalist Randians. Note that Objectivism can operate within current democratic frameworks, but will tend over time toward Plutocracy and Oligarchy. This leads naturally to Stage Two: Fascism. Here the Objectivist-Sith elites have taken over the State and either abolished democracy entirely or greatly reduced its scope – for example, the oligarchy may offer the electorate only hand-picked candidates. This stage has essentially been reached in the present-day United States. The main thing missing now is a strong Sith leader, a superman who inspires and awes the citizenry with visions of greater glories. Perhaps such a leader will soon appear in the U.S., but there seems to be a distaste for brilliant leaders among the electorate which makes it more likely that the Sith Superman will have to seize power by undemocratic means. (Note that “Neo-Conservatives” who espouse Objectivism have little resemblance to Sith Supermen, the first trait of whom is supreme competence!) Historical parallels to Adolf Hitler have some resonance, but I would not put Hitler in the Sith Superman category because he was a man of all-too-human abilities and because his vision of a Third Reich was rather provincial compared to the Galactic Empire. Napoleon was another proto-Sith Superman, but he lacked an ideology and an esoteric tradition powerful enough to sustain his empire. Once the Sith Superman emerges during Stage Two, the regime will naturally transition to an Empire led by a God-Emperor. The closest historical parallels to this state of affairs were the regimes of the Pharaohs, Caesars, Caliphs, Popes, pre-Colombian god-kings, Dalai Lamas and Oriental Emperors. In Science Fiction, there is Emperor Palpatine of Star Wars, the Kwisatz Haderach of Dune, the Mule of Foundation and the Lord Marshal of Chronicles of Riddick, to name a few of my favorites. The Sith Superman will be so exceptional that there will be no question that He must rule absolutely. He will be called the Antichrist by the monotheists because his extraordinary abilities and anti-Christian values will seem demonic to their unawakened minds. His rise will undoubtedly be accompanied by great wars and strife, because it will spell the end for the old order and the birth of the Sith Aeon. By His power and His very being, the Sith God-Emperor will embody our highest aspirations and set new standards for humanity. Finally, we will be led not by the least among us, but by the greatest! So when I speak of the “Sith Path,” understand that in its largest sense this is what I am referring to: the path of total mastery which leads to political power, societal transformation and the foundation of an Empire of Sith Supermen who will rule the Galaxy for untold millennia to come.

  • [[My responses to the Questions were as thus]]:
    Lesson One: Part 5

    So I finished reading all 3 passages that were required of my level one training, and, in sense, I am surprised that they were so short. Perhaps it is the fact that I could be rather wordy when it comes to certain things, but then again, that is just something that I happen to do personally.

    As for the first reading, I am very much intrigued to know more about this inner-mind-hologram that came to our Master as Darth Omega passed away into the void. I myself would like more details so that I can truly visualize how this may have seemed, may have felt, may have been viewed by the Master.
    I find that, while he immediately said that some might take him as a tale-spinner, he openly admitted that his vision is something that he cannot prove to be real…it is something that he feels has changed him mentally and emotionally, it is something that truly spoke to him and transformed himself and his better purpose. That in itself is a type of ‘power’ that brings newfound ideas and strengths to someone methinks.
    While it may just be a tale…obviously there are enough of us here to show that, it was convincing enough that we all want a taste of what the dark side has to offer us.

    As for the questions asked in passage 2 [[ What do you have to offer the Order? How can you help us build the Galactic Empire? What special skills, talents, or resources do you posses which could further the rise of the Sith?]] — I really have any significant answer to those questions.
    What I bring to the Order now is raw-strength and the burning desire to learn the ways of the Sith Lords, to master the dark side of the Force, and I bring with me an immense hunger knowledge, strength, and control over myself.
    As far as I how I can help build the Galactic Empire…well, I am here. Being here brings me knowledge of the Dark Side. Having knowledge of the Dark Side means I can share this power and philosophy with others…sharing this with others builds our numbers, and building our number means being one step close to having a Galactic Empire. To have knowledge is be able to spread our cause like a disease among the masses…if you prefer to look at it that way.
    Finally, the resources I bring is what little knowledge I hold of the outside world. Of people, of religions, of the things I have studied on the outside.
    That’s as simple as I can make it…and yet, the best that I can word it as this time.

    Finally, on the third passage…I found the three regime’s also as a progression among the Sith. I found it to be very interesting as well when the Sith-Emperor-God was brought into the mix. The human-race has always feared the rise of the anti-christ and prophesized His coming to our world to create destruction and chaos…so perhaps it isnt so crazy that such a being would control and rule us in the end, where darkness is eternal…but what it all comes down to is belief. And as of right now, I’m still unsure where that path leads me.

  • [[After this, the Sith training is different now as it was back when I was still a Minion and Acolyte within the Dark Order. By now, I was already on level 2 of training, but nowadays, there is no level 2 training, and there are 7 stages of what is known as “Aspirant Training” to get people started before they start searching for a Master. So my posting on my Level 2 training will not make much sense since I cannot access the questions that led to their answers.]]

    —Dec 10 ’12 Lesson Two : In Entirety

    1.       Void Meditation:
    The void meditations were the hardest part of Lesson 2 for me. As a person who has been training with a soldier lately, it’s hard to quiet the mind and lose yourself to utter nothingness because you are always taught to be on the alert (this will come into play later on within the lesson I assure you).
    Not only was I having the basic troubles of calming my mind long enough to do the actual meditations, but, once I had mastered the quieting of my mind, it was hard to “see with my inner eye” once I had lost myself in the void of this meditation.

    I remember asking in a blog what I was supposed to see…as oftentimes, when I would meditate, I would only see rough shapes, and occasionally aura or colors of power. I was confused, and my mind reflected that by throwing my energies in all different directions, and finally, Darth Ravenus brought it all to light. Master Ravenus told me about the Eye of the Storm that was often sought by the Acolytes as well as how he found it best to get there through meditation.

    By this time, I had already been working with Zazen for about a week, and while the colors and rough shapes are starting to come together more smoothly, I still have not been able to generate that star-ship that will take me to the “Eye of the Storm” so that I might come to a better sense of power within myself. It’s a slow process, but I believe that I am improving.

    When I find that the Zazen meditations are not working in the way that I would hope…I have also taken to practicing other forms of meditation as well. In my blog (that I recently updated), I have taken a fnndness for Jadus’ “Rage Meditations” in learning to better control my anger and energies so that I am not lashing out and expending all my energy in a few blows (compare it to the Hulk when I lose my temper…but then, once I have expended all my energy, I am then completely drained, leaving myself vulnerable).

    These meditations have given me time to reflect on the very memories and feelings that first brought me to wonder of the Dark Side in the first place…it has given me a chance to consider what was truly weak and what was merely an opportunity for strength in hiding, like a wolf in sheep’s clothing. Still, that is what I have gotten from my 15 days of meditations.

    2.       Sith Stare:
    In between meditations, I found that I could also work on the other parts of lesson 2 that were not as time consuming. I started (of course) with the SITH stare. One thing that I like about this exercise was the sense of power I got…even when focusing my gaze on an inanimate objects (for practice on focus), I could feel the energies slithering from body and constricting around whatever it was that I set my gaze on…I was always told by others that I could have quite the intimidating stare.

    [[The rest of this passage went on to explain a story about me trying out the Sith Stare on animals and humans. Again, this was all done in the voice of my guise, and the whole thing was a complete lie. I mean, I tried the Sith Stare on some friends and such, and I always won…but there was nothing significant about it. They were just dumb staring contests between two people with an intimidating gaze. I don’t want to scare people away from me, so, I just made up some really impressive story and added it to my entry. I mean, it got approved, so it’s not like they actually make sure that you’re doing what you’re told.]]
    3.       Self-Reprogramming:

    For self-reprogramming, I decided to kick out junk food. It may seem strange to you, but I have a rather bad habit of eating unhealthy since my partner left for the military. It was something that had been taken from me while she was home because she needed to stay at weight for BMT, and so, out of rebellion, it was one of the many bad habits I came back to after she left in April.

    It was tough since Hostess had just gone under and everything was being bought at rapid paces because we would never see those types of snacks ever again (or so we thought). It was true torture not to go and buy one box of everything before they disappeared from the shelves…but somehow…through pure will power, I held strong to my Pledge, and never strayed from the Assignment.

    4.       Body Mastery:
    There are many things that I have been doing for body mastery. I have grown somewhat lazy in my time since I first played Airsoft, was training with my soldier friend, and decided to be healthy. So, the first thing I did was pick up Taz’s old PT manual and have at it.
    I started going to the gym connected to my apartment complex and started lifting weights. I bought resistance tubes to build up my arm muscles at home, I started running through all elements of the winter weather (the cold, the snow, the rain, and the hail), increasing my distance each day.

    I also signed up for some martial arts classes to learn some Krav Maga and refresh myself on military hand-to-hand combat. I have been doing this now for 2 weeks. How is that for body mastery?

    5.       Fear Mastery:
    As I mentioned before (in the first passage)…my greatest fear is not being aware of what is going on around me at all times. I’m the type of person to sleep with one eye open because of the things I have experienced throughout my life.

    So…for fear mastery, I really put myself to the test. It started out with a normal hike/run through a nature park where I generally go to jog. I took a different trail than usual…one that required climbing hills, and the one where the path became faint and hard to follow the deeper you went into the forest. It was the “path less traveled” which finally led me to the deepest part of the woods where there were multiple things against me. Coyotes, Snakes, Venomous insects, many types of poison plants, hunters that could mistake me for a deer, ACTUAL deer…the kind that will kill anything that treads into its territories. Anything could happen.

    But, I waited until sunset…put on a blinder, put in some ear-buds to shut out the noise, sat in the middle of this forest and waited. I could see nothing, hear nothing…and the only thing with me now were my senses of smell and touch. I remember breaking out into a cold sweat, and everything in me was screaming to stop because I could not stand to be so open…so vulnerable like this. But, finally my watch beeped at me (I could feel it vibrate)…it had been an hour, and I was done. I lifted the blindfold and found that nothing had dared disturb me during this process of meditation through nothingness.

    But I feel stronger through this experience and look forward to new trials.
    “I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

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[[And this is where we will leave it for Part 1 // will soon be continued in Part 2 ]]

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